As someone who actually cried during the AP World History Exam, I don’t know how qualified I am to give advice outside of, do not cry. I overwhelmed myself and put too much pressure on doing well on the test, that I actually began to tear up when I didn’t know the changes in Chinese lifestyle under the Tang dynasty. I spent far too much energy and far too much time on a question I could have easily skipped or guessed on. I’m sure this is obvious, but do not let yourself get caught up in yourself. If you have to, down play the importance of the exam. If you allow yourself to treat it as a slightly less big deal, you won’t stress yourself out and ultimately, you won’t cry during the exam. I give myself little pep talks before I read any passage. I remind myself that I can score well on essays and I have the skills to get a good score. If you continue to remind yourself that you are more than capable of getting a good score, you can get rid of any insecurities that might cause you to, well, cry during the AP World History Exam, or AP Literature, but this is pretty much a post directed at my past self.
Author: madisonm27
A Letter to Instagram
Dear Instagram,
tbh I want to delete you. It’s like every time I have a free minute, I’m scrolling. And like even when I run out of scrolling on my own feed, I click on my recommended and go through that feed. Why are you so addicting? It’s not even fair. You are the only app I use regularly outside of spotify, but I can’t jam on instagram. I mean really, you have taken over my free time, even my not free time. When I’m “doing hw” I’m actually just scrolling through you. I want to delete the app, I really freaking do. But I can’t get enough. There’s something always. Whether it’s zodiac stuff or make up videos or memes, I can find something entertaining about you. And it’s soooooo frustrating.
Whenever I’m bored, you are what I turn to. I could turn to like, walking outside or reading or something mildly productive. But of course, I get trapped scrolling and I’m like, stuck. The worst thing, tho, isn’t even that I get trapped. It’s that I get on your app, and I get serious FOMO. It’s like, oh look all these girls are on the beach for spring break. I wanna do that! I’m stuck at school and I’m stuck feeling bad because I’m not on the beach like those girls on my feed.
And then I get sucked in. I like the attention when I post a picture. It’s like, dopamine gets released with every like or comment and it’s unbelievably addicting. I love the comments, I love the likes. But then instagram starts to take over everything else in my life. It’s like I can’t go somewhere or do something without taking pictures to post. It’s annoying, but like, I can’t freaking stop. I’m so tempted to press delete, but I can’t do it. I want to get rid of you, clean up my phone and get back to like, actually living my life.
The Color Purple Q2 Response
Alice Walker provides a powerful commentary on the patriarchy that exists within both Celie’s marriage and in her relationship with her step-son. Walker establishes a convoluted family dynamic that combines with colloquialisms and blunt diction to create a poignantly hopeless mood. The lack of imagery, quotation marks, and elongated sentences reaffirms this mood. Blunt phrases such as “Harpo ast his daddy why he beat me” and “remind me of pa” set the context for the relationship between Celie and Harpo. Their relationship is tense at best, once again established in the blunt phrases Walker employs. The questions Harpo asks are abrasive, specifically when he asks “how come you stubborn?” Despite his forthright comments, there is an element of connection between the two when Harpo announces that he loves somebody. Within this announcement is a clear establishment of trust between the two characterizes, yet it contrasts with the overall mood of hopelessness. Such contradiction demonstrates the tense bond between Celie and Harpo, yet emphasizes the fact that there is a bond. The relationship shared by the two contrasts harshly against the relationship between Celie and her husband, one of abuse. Harpo is never outright abusive to Celie in the passage, yet his abrupt disobedience emphasizes the patriarchy present in the passage. When Celie explains he is not old enough to marry, Harpo is quick to respond “I is.” The direct contradiction reveals that while Celie is in the position to be a motherly figure, she is at the control of both her abusive husband, and her disobedient step-son. Despite the fact that Celie and Harpo connect on some level, it is clearly a relationship of hierarchy. Even so, the conversation that the two share is almost sweet in harsh contrast to Celie’s statement that “It all I can do not cry.” As a whole, Walker reveals that even a mother-son type of relationship is marked by patriarchy.
Every Man’s Burden
Take up every man’s burden
To protect and lead
Go send your sons into masculinity
To be stoic and unfeeling
To wait in unemotion
And be shamed into weakness
If pain is showed,
Half-woman and half-fragile
Take up every man’s burden
To be strong beyond compare
Never small nor delicate
And never revealing more
Take up every man’s burden
To live up to expectations
“Be a doctor” said to the nurse
“Parents have a hard time” said to the teacher
Take up every man’s burden
To never feel and never show
Take up the woman’s burden
To supress and to be silent
To cover up and cover mouths
Take up the woman’s burden
To stay at home and raise the kids
In face of opposition,
Lest she chooses her career over children
Take up the woman’s burden
To fight for authority and to fight for a voice
To be taken seriously
In careers where men are “more-suited”
When asked when she will have a child
For hiring purposes
Take up the burden faced by all
With gender roles and expectations
For no one is left unaffected.
March for Our Lives
Yesterday, I grabbed my sign and took the light rail downtown to participate in the student-organized March for Our Lives. I was never really invested in politics until this year and this was my first march. I was amazed at the turn out. I was surprised that it wasn’t just students. It was parents and teachers and even some old people that I would never expect to be there. The first hour was filled with speeches. Kids from Columbine, Arapahoe, Aurora, and Parkland spoke out about what they had been through and why they were there to march. It was powerful, but otherwise difficult to hear. My school has never been shot up. I will never understand what that’s like. Somehow that makes me the lucky one. The speeches honestly surprised me. In one, a survivor from the Araphoe shooting explained profusely that the issue we were marching for was not one that could be divided along party lines. Yesterday, we advocated for the safety and common sense gun laws. The most notable being raising the age from 18 to 21 in order to purchase a gun. Others supported instituting red flag laws that would allow family members of law enforcement to seek a court order that would temporarily restrict that person’s acsess to a firearm when they are found to be a danger to themselves or others. I was proud of the students I saw around me, students who are tired of practicing active shooter drills and feeling scared every time a fire alarm goes off.
I marched yesterday because as a 17 year old, I have lived through 32 mass shootings. I counted based on shootings where in more than 4 people died in a public place. Defining it any other way would increase that number. I have lived through more mass shootings than I have celebrated birthdays. Almost double. I marched yesterday because of one day where there was a lock down after school. I was taking one of my sister’s friends home while my sister, brother, and their other friend were rehearsing with Mrs. Schnell. There was an escpaed convict in the apartment building next to Skyview, but they didn’t know that. I received “I love you” texts, texts from Mrs. Schnell saying they were safe. I found out from my sister later that my brother was crying. With tears in his eyes, he kept repeating, ” I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die.” My sister told me she had to keep calm for him, but she was terrified. The next day, she was scared to go to school.
When I told my parents I wanted to attend the march, they were scared. A large group of people in support of gun control in a tight and outdoor space; they had every reason to be worried. I am still not allowed to go to midnight screenings of movies without my dad. My mom can’t forget the Aurora Theatre shooting. We have created a culture of fear. I marched because I’m tired of the fear.
Reflections in Hamlet
*realizing the parallels all throughout act 5 got me like*
Shakespeare continues to reflect aspects of human life through Hamlet. He explores complex family relationships as well as the contradictory desire for revenge and religious fulfillment. However, he does not solely reflect elements of human life. Throughout Act V of Hamlet, Shakespeare reflects earlier events of the play in a way that emphasizes the foils he employs and the overall theme of revenge.
Ophelia’s madness serves as a powerful parallel to earlier scenes of Hamlet’s madness. She is described as being “divided from herself and her fair judgement” making her equivalent to “pictures or mere beasts” (IV.v.92-93). Hamlet has a similar statement only a scene before, stating “what is a man if his chief good and market of his time be but to sleep and feed? A beast, no more” (IV.v.37). The parallel description of what truly defines humanity further reveals the complex desire for revenge Hamlet feels contrasted against the poignant grief Ophelia undergoes. Hamlet’s description establishes his desire for revenge as a noble one, while Ophelia’s description is one of dehumanization due to her perceived madness. This contrast further emphasizes both the differing expectations of women and men in the play, but also reveals the dichotomy Shakespeare explores between self perception and perception from others. While Hamlet perceives his desire as noble, Ophelia is perceived as equivalent to an animal.
Laertes also reflects Hamlet’s convoluted family life in describing the death of Polonius that “cries cuckold to my father, brands the harlot” (IV.v.132). Laertes’ statement is a direct reference to Hamlet’s complex family relationship. Hamlet’s father was betrayed by his mother, and Hamlet continually describes his mother as impure. This direct statement of similarity establishes Hamlet and Laertes as foils of each other. Laertes desires to be “revenged most thoroughly for [his] father,(IV.v.154)” much like Hamlet’s statement that his “thoughts be bloody or nothing worth” in only the scene prior (IV.iv.69). While the similarities seem endless in the fifth act, The stark difference between the two lies in Claudius’ treatment of the both of them. In the first act, Claudius describes Hamlet’s reaction as one of “unmanly grief” (I.ii.198) in contrast to Claudius promising Laertes “our crown, our life, and all that we call ours (IV.v.232). Claudius’s line parallels the structure of his earlier justification for why he murdered his brother stating “my crown, mine own ambition and my queen” (iii.iii. 59). The small differences between the two further emphasize Claudius’ upstanding treatment of Laertes in contrast to his harsh treatment of Hamlet. The two are clear foils of one another, chosen to legitimize Hamlet’s intense desire for revenge as well as Claudius’ complex character in his dichotomy of morality and pride.
Soliloquy Analysis Hamlet
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Reflection of the Patriarchy in Hamlet
Literature often serves as a reflection for reality, a mirror that reflects parts of humanity that are often looked over or so ingrained into society that these aspects are often overlooked. Shakespeare’s Hamlet explores a number of aspects of the human condition, including revenge, morality and complex relationships. However, one facet of human nature explored in Hamlet was once so ingrained into society, it was easily overlooked in the time Hamlet was published. With modern eyes, the idea of gender roles is heavily explored, revealing the sexism found within human nature.
Easily the most revealing aspect of Hamlet into the sexism of reality is the character Ophelia in her relationships with other characters. She is warned by Laertes to never lose her “chaste treasure” and to see Hamlet “no more” (I.iii. 35, 11). Through Laertes’ patronizing phrases of “perhaps he loves you now” and “fear it, my dear sister” Shakespeare reveals the strict gender confinements Ophelia is kept in (I.iii.17, 37). While Laertes is presumably her equal due to their status and age, his commands to her to stay pure reveal the patriarchal structure of human society. Similarly, there are ongoing instances of objectification Ophelia faces. Despite Hamlet’s obvious grief due to the loss of his father and lack of support from his mother, Polonius believes Ophelia’s “good beauties be the happy cause of Hamlet’s wilderness” (II.i.42-44). Despite these instances of sexism, Ophelia remains complacent revealing the expectation of women to simply deal with their status in society without fighting back. It is interesting to note this complacency, as it further reveals the ingrained sexism in human nature and the pressure on both men and women to keep the status quo.
Hamlet’s treatment of his mother also further shows the ingrained sexism in society. While Hamlet’s anger toward his mother is justified, he goes on to say “frailty, thy name is woman” (I.ii.150). Hamlet also verbally attacks his mother in a way that questions her purity, emphasizing the pressure on women to maintain their “chaste treasure” as Laertes warns Ophelia (I.iii. 35). Gertrude is accused of taking “off the rose from the fair forehead of an innocent love” focusing on the floral imagery to again emphasize the expectations of frailty and purity on women (III. iv. 51-54). Hamlet orders Gertrude to “confess [herself] to heaven” and to “assume a virtue if you have it not” as if Hamlet had not just murdered Polonius (III.iv. 170, 181). His perception of being more moral than Gertrude further reveals the pressure of purity, as if being impure is the most heinous crime a woman can commit. As a whole, both the characters of Gertrude and Ophelia show the intense expectations placed women due to the patriarchal society they live in.
The Question of Motivation
To do my blog post or not to do my blog post – that is the question:
Whether ’tis easier to type out the 300 words
The thought and the time required to get a 10/10
Or to watch Netflix against the looming threat of a ‘B’
And Mrs. Brooks impending wrath. To write, to complete the assignment
I don’t want to– and Gossip Girl Season 3 Episode 2 lies waiting
The procrastination– how I wish I could be done with Highschool. To write, to complete the assignment-
Tis an effort I do not have the motivation to produce: ay, Season 3 promises to be amazing
For in that abyss of entertainment what else lies within the recommended section
That I wish to explore, to watch, to enjoy.
I need to write this blog post. There’s the desire
To excel, to feel the satisfaction of completion.
For who would procastinate for hours
Watching a mindless and unrealistic show, set in the Upper East Side of New York
That lacks real depth, yet is so addicting.
Netflix, the satisfaction of completion
The fear of Mrs. Brooks wrath, “the scandalous lives of Manhattan’s elite”
The desire to conquer senioritis, and the fear of the final
That blog post waiting to be written,
When she herself presses the Netflix app,
Will she ever do it? She must, yet who else
Has completed it? Ideas stolen, motivation depleating
Blair and Serena are fighting again, how can she resist?
But that dread of failure,
The undiscovered and unwanted black mark in the grade book, from which
No A-student can recover from, no extra credit can fix
And makes “xoxo Gossip Girl” stop
But can she actually complete the blog post?
281 words. She is close, she can feel it.
Thus procrastination makes failures of us all,
And thus the ever pressing fear of a ‘B’
Is sickled over with the desire for mindless drama
And Dan slept with Georgina
With this detail how can she resist clicking “next episode”?
While the blog post waits for completion
With this regard she finishes the post.
And then clicks play.
Dear Hamlet,
Hey man,
I don’t want to tell you I understand. That’s just being unfair. You’re going through a lot right now, a lot of stuff I never have had to deal with. You have a lot of pressure on you right now to be strong and happy for your mother and that’s gotta be hard. You’re hurting I know.
You have to remember that even though you’re feeling really alone right now, you have a ton of people who support you and love you. You have Horatio and Marcellus, friends who really care about you and you can’t forget how much you mean to them, even though you’re going through a lot. You’ll always have Ophelia and you have to stay strong right now.
Like I said, I don’t want to pretend I understand what you’re going through but I know you still have so much to live for. Things are hard right now, but they can’t stay that way forever. You can’t force yourself to get better but you don’t have to grieve forever. You have the whole country of Denmark to explore. It’s yours. You have Horatio and you have Marcellus and you have Ophelia, people who want to see you succeed. You can’t Claudius get to you. You have so much strength, so much perseverance, Hamlet.
So feel the pain. Don’t listen to your mom, your uncle, anyone who tells you to get over it. You need to grieve, you need to feel. Give yourself time. There are no time limits for grief. But you have to remember who you are. You are Hamlet, son of the most powerful King of Denmark. You have so much strength, it’s in your blood. You will move past this, you will succeed. You have people who care about you and the strength of royalty. You can push through.